Lelaki curang

Simple je tajuk kali ni.

Nak meluahkan perasaan yang terbuku pasal lelaki curang. Cannot go btol la lelaki2 yang acah2 kasanova ni. Kalo kaya + hensem..takpe gak. Ni dah la rupa pun so-so je (tak baik plak nk kutuk ciptaan Allah kn)..kaya? Jauh panggang dari api. Nk finance himself pun tak mampu.

Actually, ada dua kes. Kes aku n kwn aku. Tp disebabkn aku tak mintak permission kat kawan aku tu untuk cter pasal kes dia, aku cter pasal kes aku je la.

Ok, aku kenal this guy almost setahun. Dia confess kat aku, katanya jatuh cinta pndg pertama. Ceh, bohong. Sebab wktu dia nmpk aku tu, aku selekeh + serabai gila. Then, kitorg kenal2..aku terima dia atas dasar simpati at first. Hati lembut sikit..haha. Bila dah lama2, aku start accept dia seikhlas hati.

Guess what!!!! After few days aku accept dia seikhlas hati tuh...jeng2, dia ada awek lain. Bertuah punya jantan. Yang aku marah sangat sebab, dia pasang dua. Aku n pmpuan tuh. Kot ye dah gatal sgt, putus la dgn aku dlu..bru p pasang yg lain.

Aku ni bukan kaki stalker. Tapi dah Allah nak tunjuk kan..sebelum aku letak harapan lagi tinggi, Allah dah selamatkan aku. Lepas kejadian ni, aku scroll la timeline fb dia. Apparently, bukan aku sorg yg kena game dgn dia. Ramai lg anak dara lain yg dia mainkn perasaan. Honestly, aku kesian dgn pmpuan2 yg kena game tu. Aku? Aku ok je. Since aku takdela syg mana pun kat dia.

Untuk lelaki2 kat luar tu yg ada niat nk mainkan perasaan org, pikir ni ye. Maybe sekarang kau seronok mainkn org. Kau rasa hebat sebab ramai pmpuan nak kat kau. But, one day. One fine day, you will get a daughter..bila ada lelaki yg mainkn perasaan anak kau..jgn kau tanya apa dosa anak kau sampai dia kena dugaan macam tu. NO!! Bukan salah dia. Salah kau.

In my case, jgn kau cakap ni salah bapak aku. I know my father damn well. He's fucking loyal to one woman. My mom. It's my fault..totally my fault sebab mudah percayakn org. Lagi2 org mulut manis mcm kau.

Tahniah, disebabkn kau..aku dah lost interest dgn lelaki. Doesn't mean I'm going to be lesbian. Dosa besar n menyalahi fitrah manusia tu. I'm just not interested in marriage for now and focusing on building my empire with my buddies. Thanks for all your lies. It makes me stronger than yesterday and taught me not to believe in man easily.

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My thought on YANA: MICHAEL Through A Brother's Eyes by Jermaine Jackson

Alright, this post actually was requested by a friend of mine. It's not a review. More like what I love the most of this book. So, shall we begin? Oh, I'm gonna write the rest of the post in Malay (with a little bit English :p). 

[SPOILER ALERT]

Firstly, nak puji buku ni..sebab disusun dengan teratur. Start dengan early years of The Jacksons sampai la This Is It concert followed by the trial of Conrad Murray.

Apa yang aku discover daripada penulisan Jermaine ni? Aku found out yang Katherine (their mom) sangat sangat mementingkan kebersihan. Ye, memang kebersihan penting and almost semua orang pun suka benda bersih..tapi diorang punya bersih is on another level (bagi aku la). Tahap mana bersih diorg ni? Semua baju yang diorang pakai, tak boleh pakai dua kali. Bukan buang, maksudnya..mak dia akan basuh semua baju yang diorg pakai aritu..sama ada baju event atau baju apa pun, harus basuh dulu sebelum pakai semula, *aku pun x dak rajin macam tu* So, aku mcm "woooow!!! Bersih gila the jacksons ni" "patotla Michael slalu bawak perfume dgn dia, utk make sure dia always smells good especially bila dia nak peluk fans"

Next, the relationship between Jermaine and The Jacksons. As fans, nampak mcm Jermaine yg tinggalkan Jacksons 5 bila diorg decide untuk tukar recording label ke Epic Records dr Motown. Tapi di mata Jermaine, diorg yang tinggalkan Jermaine sebab bagi Jermaine, diorg bermula di Motown, so for him, they're supposed to stick with that label till the end.

Is it fun to be Michael Jackson? Hell no. sebab apa aku cakap cmtu? He lost his childhood to be a megastar. After being a household name with the Thriller video, guess what happened to him? Yes, dia mampu beli rumah dekat Los Angeles, which called Neverland sebab dia rasakan diri dia Peter Pan. Dia tak nak grow up. Dia nak enjoy hidup dia as innocent as child and as humble as newborn baby. Dia bukak Neverland secara percuma untuk kanak-kanak yang sakit (macam2 jenis sakit, kanser dan sebagainya) untuk diorg enjoy segala macam yang ada dalam Neverland tu. for those yang tak tahu apa yang ada kat Neverland, it's like a theme park. Ada ferris wheel, ada train, n macam2 jenis ride. You name it, he had almost all of them. Apa lagi yang ada kat Neverland? Ada movie theater. Yg ni paling best nak cter. Dekat dalam teater dia, ada dua bilik yg ada katil khas untuk kanak-kanak yg sakit teruk tp still nk enjoy the movie. And the big revealation by Jermaine, "if the cinema doesn't have that blockbuster, Michael have it". So, cakap je nk tgk cter ape.

oopps..excited plak cter pasal Neverland smpi ter'miss' nk cter knape tak 'fun' jd Michael ni. Ok, td dah cter kan byk kanak2 masuk Neverland, some simply just want to see Mike. Tapi...ada some of them yg parents dia mempunyai pikiran sebegini rupa, "kenapa kerja keras sedangkan kita boleh saman Michael atas tuduhan meliwat anak kita". Sumpah aku cakap, aku sedih gila sampai menangis. Aku terpaksa stop kejap sebelum sambung baca. Bayangkanlah dia ajak budak2 tu, just for healing process tp parents diorg take advantage sampai macam tu sekali.

Most of them thought they will win and walk away freely with some cash, but they are dead wrong. They don't know what the consequences for a long-time period.  Yes, diorg mmg dapat cash tp bukan atas izin Michael. Michael nk trial untuk membuktikan dia tak bersalah tp pihak lain yg berkenaan just give them some money outside the court to settle down the issue. Kenapa aku mention pasal long-time period td? Lpas Michael mati, few months after that, salah seorg parents yg tuduh Michael bunuh diri. Dipercayai dihantui rasa bersalah. Mau ka tak rasa bersalah. Anak dia daripada sakit teruk, dapat jumpa Michael, nampak perubahan positif dan semakin sihat. Kalau aku pun, aku rasa bersalah.

Cukup dengan tuduhan2 tak berasas, Boleh baca buku tu untuk tahu lebih lanjut. Sekarang ni, nak cter pasal This Is It concert. The so called last concert of Mike. Jermaine gtau, Michael sebenarnya Michael dah plan beberapa lgi concert for next 5 years.  Jadi kenapa Michael kata itu final concert? Let me remind you, dia dah dalam show biz sejak daripada umur 8. He's genius. He knew what exactly what people want and how to sell it to them. Bila dia cakap cmtu, for sure the fans akan beli tiket konsert thinking it is the last time we can see him LIVE.

There is a moment that excites me the most. One day, Jermaine n isteri dia, Halima g Senegal. N dekat Senegal tu, diorg g tempat yg plg remote. Tmpat yg media pun x boleh nk reach. Halima suruh translator tnya owner rumah yg diorg visit tu, "kenal tak Barrack Obama?" Owner tu ckap tak kenal. Halima suruh tnya lg sekali, tp kali ni, "kenal tak Michael Jackson?" Guess what?? Owner tu kenal!! N dia tnya translator tu, adakah org depan dia ni one of Michael's brothers. Translator kata ya. What happened next???? About 50 children come to that house shouting "MICHAEL JACKSON". This is how he should be remembered. His love reach everywhere, every human in this world.

Ok la..aku rasa je ni yang menarik perhatian aku. Yang pasal trial pun ada gak, Tapi...better baca sendiri kot :) baru feel. 

next book: Remember The Time. Sapa nak aku share thought cmni untuk buku tu..sila la komen ye :)

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Moonwalker Tag 2

Okay, so few days ago I asked my followers to give me questions related to Michael as many as they can on @moonwalkersmalaysia's instagram account. Let's take a look what they ask and I will answer all of them!

I will answer them by category.

Michael Jackson

Are you a Mjperv ? 😏😂😂 (asked by @we_love_you_more_)

No.

Did you ever see Michael in real??? (asked @hamidbehroozfar)

I wish. But sadly, never.

Do you ever have dreams about him? (asked by@mjfanforlife_2555)

Hurmmm...I don't think so.

Off The Wall

What is your favorite song of the album Off The Wall? (asked by @we_love_you_more_)

Off The Wall

Girlfriend or Burn This Disco Out? (asked by @laci_champney)

Oohhh..this is hard. But I think I'll choose Burn This Disco Out because it's funky.

Rock With You or Off The Wall? (asked by @lexi_derksen11)

Definitely, Off The Wall!!

Thriller

Can you do the Thriller dance? (asked by @we_love_you_more_)

No. I don't dance. But, maybe I should learn it later.

Thriller or Beat It or Billie Jean? (asked by @lexi_derksen11)

Tough question. I love Beat It. It has strong message. 

But if you ask about most iconic MV and song, then it's Billie Jean. Because almost everyone know it's Billie Jean playing when you hear the first beat of the song.

Do you like Paul McCartney? (asked by @michael.p.y.t.jackson)

Yeah.

Beat it or Billie Jean? (asked by @teen.era.mike.is.mine)

Beat It!

Bad

What's ur fave song on bad album? (asked by @michaeljackson.perf)

Dirty Diana

Get it or Just Good Friends? (asked by @thekidisnotmyson)

Just Good Friends

Just good friends or Liberian girl? (asked by @laci_champney)

Liberian Girl. Because I love the MV.

Bad or Smooth criminal? (asked by @lexi_derksen11)

Choreographically, Smooth Criminal. Lyrically, Bad. Outfit, Bad.

Speed demon or leave me alone? (asked by @michael.p.y.t.jackson)

Uhm, both of these songs are not my fav, but I think I'll go with Speed Demon because the MV has so much fun. Hehe.

Liberian girl or streetwalker ? (asked by @mjfanforlife_2555)

Liberian Girlllllll

Dangerous

Do you like Who Is It? (asked by @thekidisnotmyson)

Yes. Always remember him beat boxing to Oprah when I listen to this song.

Gone too soon or keep the faith? (asked by @michael.p.y.t.jackson)

Gone Too Soon. Because I think it's more sincere and came from the heart. I can feel it when he sang it.

Heal the world or will you be there? (asked by @teen.era.mike.is.mine)

Will You Be There.

History

Are you a fan of the gold pants?? (asked by @michael.jackson.for.infinity). 

Absolutely. Who doesn't, right?

How do you feel about the 'You are not alone' music video? (asked by @teen.era.mike.is.mine)

I literally have to watch it before answering this question. Well, I love everything on the video, except Lisa. Haha. Love the silky hair, the see-through cloth, the scenery they used for filming the MV, and the grand hall. Everything is amazing when Michael did it.

MICHAEL

Unfortunately, no one ask about this album.

Xscape

Chicago or Place With No Name? (asked by @thekidisnotmyson)

A Place With No Name.

Do you like loving you? (asked by @michael.p.y.t.jackson)

Of course. I think it's one of the greatest love song from Michael.

What's your favorite song off the album ? (asked by @mjfanforlife_2555)

A Place With No Name.

Tour

What is your favorite tour ? (asked by @we_love_you_more_)

Bad World Tour.

In your opinion what's the sexiest tour? (asked by @michael.p.y.t.jackson)

Sexiest? I think HIStory Tour. He still killin' it even he's married and he almost 40.

Bad tour or dangerous tour ? (asked by @mjfanforlife_2555)

Bad Tour

Did your parents ever go see him during his tour? (asked by @teen.era.mike.is.mine)

No. My parents doesn't like to spend money on concert.

Dangerous or HIStory tour? michaelmckellar

Man...both are great. But HIStory.

Jackson Family

Favourite Jackson Besides Mike. (@thekidisnotmyson) 

Tito. Because, I personally feel he's very loving brother compared to other Jacksons member. I can see how much he truly love his brothers through his eyes.

Do you like Latoya? (asked by @michael.p.y.t.jackson)

Not much. I didn't hate her tho.

Do you like randy? (asked by @mjfanforlife_2555)

Not much.

Award Show

What's your favorite award show that he was in ? (asked by @mjfanforlife_2555)

Tough question again. I think my favorite one is when he receiving Legend Grammy Award in 1993. Love it for 2 reasons. One, because he's been recognized as a LEGEND. Two, because of his powerful speech.

Do you think he should be more recognized in award shows these days? (asked by @teen.era.mike.is.mine)

Yes. I would to see they do tribute of Mike at least once in 3 years. Or just simply do the throwback slideshow. That will be more than enough, I guess.

Book

Have you read the book Moonwalk ? (we_love_you_more_

Yesssss!!

How many books of Michael do you have? pandora_michael

Currently, four.

Do you have "Dancing the dream"? michael.p.y.t.jackson

Not yet.

What's your favorite book about him ? mjfanforlife_2555

So far, I still like Moonwalk.

Do you own 'Moonwalk'? teen.era.mike.is.mine

Yes. I own it.

Outfit

What is your favorite outfit of Michael ? ( in a music video ) 😊 we_love_you_more_

Yet another tough question. Well, let's see. I think outfit from Bad MV. Because everytime I see something with buckle design, I just stop there and stare at them until I satisfy. This happened after I watch BAD.

Do you prefer Bad outfit or Dangerous outfit? michael.p.y.t.jackson

BAD

Gold pants or gold leotard? teen.era.mike.is.mine

Love them both, but gold pants.

Well, that's lots of questions. Maybe I'll do my own questions set later. And you've got to answer them.

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Basketball Header

Another anime header. It's also suitable if you want to use it as Instagram divider.

If you want me to split it in three square pictures, please let me know in the comment.

I'll be glad if I could help.

Hope you like it.

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Shirogane Header

Since I can't find any Shirogane wallpaper on the internet, end up make one simple wallpaper out of boredom. Suitable for header. Feel free to use it. Hehe.

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Moonwalker Tag 1

This is actually from Instagram, made by @l.o.v.e.y.o.u.m.o.s.t

I don't want to answer it on Instagram,but on my blog post. ^^

So, let's start.

When did you became a Moonwalker?

Let's see. I'm not truly sure about this. I know about his existence when I'm around 7 or 8, after watching Moonwalker movie. Getting to know him more when I'm 14. (I found a book full with lyrics of MJ songs that I rewrite back when I was 14). Getting obsessed since then. And became more dedicated after his death. 

Favourite MJ song atm?

Human Nature

Favorite MJ short film?

Ghosts

Favorite era?

BAD, Invincible

Favorite album?

BAD

Favorite quote?

“If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.”

Describe Michael with 3 words!

Warm. Humanitarian. Love.

What would you say if you met him?

Can we be best friend?

Do you think he is alive?

Yes, sometimes.

Repost and tag 20 accounts.

Nope. Not gonna tag anyone. But if you do the same on your blog, please let me know in the comment :)

Requested by: michael.is.my.xscape on Instagram

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Cinta Itu Meluaskan Hati

Post kali ini dipetik daripada post @jeng_billie di Instagramnya. She's one of my inspiration in my life. Tertarik dengan captionnya di Instagram, aku buat keputusan untuk share caption tu di blog aku.





Apa kata Sayyidatina Fatimah az-Zahra tentang cinta?

Suatu hari Rasulullah bertanya kepada Ali ra.

R: wahai Ali, apakah kamu mencintai Allah?
A: tentu saja, Rasulullah
R: apakah engkau mencintai utusan Allah SWT?
A: tentu saja, Rasulullah
R: apakah engkau mencintai Fatimah, puteri utusan Allah SWT?
A: tentu ya Rasulullah
R: apakah engkau juga mencintai Hassan dan Husein? (cucu baginda Rasulullah)
A: tentu saja ya Rasulullah
R: kalau begitu wahai Ali, bagaimana mungkin dalam satu hati ada empat cinta? Bagaimana mungkin hati muat menampungnya?

Ali yang merupakan pintunya ilmu tak tahu harus menjawab apa dan meminta waktu memikirkannya. Sesampainya di rumah, Ali menceritakannya kepada Fatimah, isterinya.

Tersenyum, Fatimah menjawab:
Hati manusia memiliki banyak sisi dan martabat yang berbeza.
Aku mencintai Allah dengan akal dan imanku.
Mencintai Rasulullah dengan rohku, mencintai Fatimah dengan nafsuku sebagai manusia, dan  mencintai Hassan dan Husein dengan fitrahku sebagai sebagai seorang ayah. Terjawab sudah pertanyaan itu.

Keesokannya, Ali sampaikan jawapan itu kepada Rasulullah. Beliau pun bersabda, "ya Ali, dari jawaban ini tercium nubuwwah. Sebagai bunga dari pohon kenabian!"

"Benar demikian, ya Rasulullah!"

Demikian, Fatimah az-Zahra menjelaskan bahawa dengan mencintai, hati takkan menyempit, malah diluaskan. (walallahua'alam bishawab)

Mampukah kita mencintai secara ikhlas lillahi ta'ala? Walau kadang tak berbalas?




Sejujurnya, aku memang dah pasang niat untuk lebih tahu sirah Rasulullah. Malu la sebagai Islam tak tahu sejarah Rasulullah, tapi boleh tahu semua tentang Michael. Allah Maha Kaya dan Maha Mengetahui, Dia datangkan hidayah tu melalui kak Yasmin, my inspiration.

Sebelum ni, aku penah baca yang kak Yasmin berhijab sebab Michael. Pelik kan? But it's the truth. Boleh baca kat sini. Dan Allah hantar kak Yasmin untuk aku lebih mencintai Rasulullah. Aku bersyukur sangat yang aku ambil first move untuk berhubung dengan kak Yasmin. Banyak nasihat yang dia bagi kat aku dan banyak yang aku belajar daripada pengalaman hidup dia. Semoga aku lebih mencintai Allah dan Rasul-Nya.

Hidayah itu dicari, bukan dinanti.

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